Monday, January 24, 2011

Monday Rememberings and a Give Away

***Did I forget to mention there is a little gift card surprise in the journal?"  Now you have to read to the end of this post to see what I'm talking about.

Monday, Monday, glad I can stay in today. Gray, overcast skies do not depress me. Don't get me wrong, I love the sunshine but wintry type days help contribute to my cleaning and putting things away. If I am going to sit down and read a book or write a letter, I like to have things around here a little more orderly. Both Roy and I create piles of papers and books. We are both really trying to be better about clutter. No,we aren't hoarders! One evening this week Roy went through his previously untouchable book case for a bit of book purging. I am so proud of him. I filled a box of Cd's that I've put onto itunes and added a few books of my own to Roy's sacrificial offering. My suggestion was just take them to Goodwill but Roy decided to load everything up and take them to Half Price Books Friday afternoon. He came home with a grand total of $14.00. He figured with his time and gas usage, it would have been more economical to just drop them off at Goodwill. But hey, $14.00 is $14.00. Feeling so flush with cash, we went to Grand Luxe for a late lunch, early dinner.

Saturday morning wasn't as sad as I thought it might be. With Pappasito's out of the breakfast game, we had to make a decision if we were going out for breakfast. We even thought about driving over to Pearland to eat at Mimi's but we opted for Buffalo Grille. The Toasted Cinnamon coffee was the consolation of the morning.

Lest you think this whole post is going to be what I ate this weekend, it won't be. I've been reading Soul Print and have been highlighting passages like no one's business. Only the highlighting has been on the Nook. I decided I would also need a print copy of this book for quicker reference and better highlighting. One particular subject has given me much to ponder, defining moments. Several months ago I began a post here on the blog on a defining moment in my childhood but I never published it because it was more a cathartic exercise for me. But I am realizing that this moment has been working undercover and very much in the background in my everyday life since the time of the moment. It has stolen life from me and it shouldn't have because Jesus came to give abundant life. This moment isn't thought about every day now but it has influenced decisions and characteristics in me. Sadly I have given this moment way too much power. In my childhood I stopped trusting adults and consequently physical and emotional scars were bottled up inside. It was too much for a child to carry. Not until I began seeing a therapist to help me deal with a recent disappointment in life several years ago, did we step back into this defining moment. Today I can tell you I have been set free from the hurt and damage I let this have. Sometimes I thought about it and replayed it too many times when I found myself down or depressed. There is nothing I can do about the past, well except surrender it to Jesus which is the best thing that I could ever do. With that I surrendered the pain, hurt, distrust, anger, hate, and most especially the "what if" the moment had turned out differently. Was I going to John 5 it? Did I want to get well or would I rather be like the man by the pool who would rather offer up excuses than answer Jesus' question. DO YOU WANT TO BE WELL? Yep, I do and so this mat of a moment that should have never been a defining moment has been taken up and a healing in me has taken place.

While picking up the paperback of Soul Print, I also found a journal. Yes, I know I have too many journals but this one is quite special. It has a travel theme. There are quotes and journey or travel Bible verses all through it. I would like to give this journal away. So, just leave a comment on this post by February 1st to be in the drawing. Oh, and your comment can just be, I would like the journal. Please do not feel you have to comment about my disjointed ramblings about giving power to moments that should not be defining moments.


Amanda said...

Nancy, thank you for sharing that. I do not want to keep giving power to shame or painful moments from my past. I needed that today.

Anonymous said...

Nancy, What a blessing to see what God has done in and through you this last year. Great things He has done and will continue to do.

becky thurman said...

Wow....just read the last 3 days of blogs and I have been so intrigued. Learning so many things about you and your've got to write a book. Anyway I love journals and I have too many probably but that one sounds neat. I may have to get this book too - Soul Print. Never heard of it. Thanks. Becky

Kelly Fisher said...

Aren't you so glad I introduced you to Mark Batterson? LOL

I have not started Soul Print yet as I am reading "Slave" by John MacArthur. You gotta read that one, too! It's amazing...and I am not a fan of MacArthur!

I want that journal! You can just bring it with you to bible study tomorrow. :D